more thoughts around midnight

Not feeling very creative tonight hence the title. It seems at or around midnight I have a need to sort out my thoughts. It helps me to talk or write things in order to make sense of conflicting and puzzling things swirling around in my head and since there is no one here or is willing to talk to me I come here.

Sigh....  I just truly don't understand people sometimes, especially the ones closest to you that you love. I don't understand how people can have such a bad attitude sometimes or seemingly look for things to be angry or upset about. As soon as I walk in all I get is negativity and criticism. There is no hello, how are you?, how was your day, and so forth. It is so simple really, and easy to do, a common courtesy.

I baby sat tonight. The lady was kind enough to give me a ride home. I didn't want to come home because I knew it would be like this.   I had hoped things would be different becuase we have not seen each other in a long time. Sure enough I was right. 

The sitituation is out of my hands now. There is nothing I can do but pray and give it to the LORD.  Which I am doing.

Even so I could use a  hug and a grand white chocolate mocha right now.  But alas it is well past midnight now and I probably ought to go to bed now.

Some thoughts at Midnight

I am tired tonight, and no wonder it is nearly midnight. I really just want to go to bed right now, my eyes are droopy, and I am a little bit chilly. But nonetheless I am awake and just somehow I feel compelled to write.

Thing have been difficult, really difficult lately. Things are at a point where I don't know what else to do. It seems all areas of my life there is something. I long for the peace and calmness and being of one accord with my husband.  All I can do is pray and ask the LORD to sustain me through this rough time. I know he is and will be that to me.  It does say in Psalms the LORD is near to the downtrodden and brokenhearted. I need HIM so much.

Now I am very sleepy and just want to lie down and sleep. Perhaps I will be able to rest tonight.

ugh

Ugh, that's how I feel. It's a ugh sort of day.

Husbands out there sit up and take notice and be a little bit more appreciative of your wives and the work they do.  They are not a slave or a maid or even an employee to be treated harshly and ordered about. It is not for men to enforce submission and lord over, keep them in their place. That is not biblical. The bible does say that the wife is to willing submit herself to the husband "Wives, submit yourselves to your own husbands as you do to the Lord." Ephesians 5:22

Also  just because they don't earn money does not mean they do not have any worth or value. I sometimes feel this way though comments made to me or through actions. They should be even more of worth because they don't recieve money for what they do and often work much longer.  I work hard anyone who knows me knows that.

There's my rant and rave of the day..

 I am sorry I've been away for awhile and not updated my blog. I've been terribly sick and am just now finally getting my  energy back.

And now I  don't feel like writing any more.